After returning to work following a week off for the Christmas holidays a number of years ago, I found myself facing several deadlines that all of sudden seemed impossible to meet. That night I was unable to sleep because of my anxiety over all the pressure I was facing.
Appraisals of performance were due by the end of the week on employees reporting to me. A speech for the annual kickoff meeting of our entire marketing department of over a thousand people was also due. The finalization of our litigation budget for outside counsel covering a docket of over 1500 cases was yet another item. On top of these things was the general negative fallout from my having declined to accept a new assignment a few months earlier because we believed it would have a negative impact on our family.
I shared my anxiety with a small group of Christian men with whom I regularly met. They encouraged me and prayed with me for peace and wisdom on how to practically deal with each task. After seeking my own prayer I was able to establish a plan for the group of tasks. By week’s end all but one of the appraisals were completed. The speech was finished and our staff was able to do most of the work on the litigation budget.
St. Paul reminds us that prayer guards our hearts and minds against anxiety. He says, “Have no anxiety at all, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” Phil. 4:6-7.
In looking back it is easy to see that I had lost my peace because I had not taken my anxiety to the Lord. I started worrying and condemning myself for letting things slide. I was not guarding my heart and mind with prayer to Jesus as St. Paul suggests.
Jesus encourages us not to worry but to seek his kingdom and righteousness first. He said, “Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself.” (Mt. 6: 33-34) The boundary between peace and anxiety is a thin line and easy to cross, but we have Jesus as a sentinel to guard our minds and hearts if we choose to call on him. “I sought the Lord, who answered me and delivered me from all my fears.” (Psalm 34:4)
Do you take your worries and anxieties to Jesus, or do you keep them to yourself?